"BEWARE! With Federal charges, you either plea bargain or pay dearly. Federal prosecutors want trophies, more convictions. The prosecution wanted me to plea to almost a million pills, LIE, under oath, swear to God to something I didn't do. Then, sign a paper saying I could get 20 + years. I told them I learned, in treatment that I would be okay, if I just did "the next right thing. The prosecutor told me if I didn't (plea) that I would be doing the "next worse thing." They threatened more charges and a long prison term. What choice did I have?
My co-defendants, "cooperated" and got probation, even though they were prior felons. I chose to go to trial and was found guilty of distribution, I never denied that, I testified to the truth. However, the gov't found a way to sentence me to distributing 23,000 pills, every pill me and my co-defendants were prescribed over a 5 year period. That's a level 42 under the sentencing guidelines. That is 30 years to LIFE!
The judge admitted he believed that we were "just a bunch of addicts trading and fronting pills." and departed 12 levels. The new lady prosecutor got her first trophy, and my inexperienced lawyer got experience, at MY expense. I have little hope for an appeal.
How can I be an addict and, yet, "distribute" ALL of my pills? I was buying, not selling! Of course What I did was wrong, but there should be a better solution. I continue aftercare and counseling on my own. The victims were mostly my family. I lost everything, and almost lost my life. I did lose a few years due to the amnesia effect of the drugs. My family, especially my teenage daughter, is so happy to finally have the old me back. But it wasn't enough for the prosecution, because I wouldn't lie for them, and they retaliated. Who is really getting robbed? I will cope with prison, everyone else will pay.
It will cost an est. $30,000.00 per year to the tax payers (more for the men and women who have dependents on welfare) and I could be working and contributing to society. My new lawyer is asking $45,000.00 to do my appeal. My father is paying. I hate it. I feel so defeated. Not much chance of winning against the Federal Gov't, but hope is hope.
Thanks for listening,
How sad. If you have some encouraging words for her (not legal advice for her appeal), I'm sure she'd enjoy reading them in the comments.